So many things happened and mostly in the last week. I'm ill and since today morning I can't even laugh, because it leads to coughing and my lungs ache like crazy. The positive thing is I don't go to school and get enough sleep. But the 11th grade isn't bad, so I don't mind going to school, only standing up early. But I should have given the teachers, who are responsible for that, the paper with the subjects I want to write class tests in... I hope doing it on Monday is still ok.
The best thing about the school now is that we aren't divided into classes any more. Spending almost all time in
 school with the same people leads to them getting on your nerves and vice versa.
The drama club in school (in Germany it's only possible as an extracurricular activity) is doing "Saint Joan" by George Bernard Shaw.
 All of those in my grade, who were participating  last year, quit, because of the lack of time, but there were 2 new ones from the 11th grade. And last week the casing for the role of Joan took place. The stage director decided to make two persons per  leading roles. I though "Why not?" and tried out for the role of Joan... I've gotten it! I still can't really believe it. A friend from one of those who quit stayed there and she told me that 9 out of 10 students decided that I was the 1st place.
And one of the features of 11th grade is the two weeks practice, so everybody get a chance to see a profession. I finally found a place
 (with a help of coincidence) exactly where I wanted, in a hospital...
This year is certainly going to be hard, but I will do my best...
Oh and I've gotten a new computer... So when I'll have time I can post whenever I want...

... and the Starbucks.
The school started once again. And there are quite a few changes in the timetable. The major change are the times, because we now have a 65 minutes lessons. We have fewer lessons now and so on. From the 11 grade on the Sports is in the afternoon after school. And now I have to make new plans for piano lessons and I won't be able to go to tennis on Thursdays. The end is nearing and there will be a lot more work to do and things to learn. So I won't have much time for the anime. I'm going to reduce the time I spend on it. Right after I'll  finish watching  D. Gray-man. And I've got about 20 episodes to go...
Starbucks, no matter how great, is much too expensive.
And the most important news explaining the lack of posts before and in the near future. My computer is officially dead...  After the vacation in Spain, I was very eager to go through my whole e-mail. The paradox is that when you're not there and the place you're staying doesn't have internet then you get  an incredible amount of e-mail. So I unpacked my things quickly and it was already about 23.30, I pushed the button to turn my computer on... And nothing came... After trying to relocate the power source, the situation didn't change. After a third try there was a small "explosion" in the front.  The Sunday evening my father and I try to reanimate it. Fortunately we have an old twin downstairs, that wasn't being used. So it donated the burned details to my computer.  That didn't work. Apparently the worst case happened, the motherboard has burned down... It was already late and my father's plane to Moscow was  in the early morning, so the last operation will have to wait until he comes back.
I suppose I will get a new one. But I want the old one to work again, to at least recover my lost music collections (some of the songs were hard to find and I spend a lot of time finding them). That's the only thing I don't want to lose...
And I want to sleep... I'm not used to waking up that early, not after the vacation...

It's unbelievable but true!!! Russia has won and is in the semi-finals...
European Cup turned to be full of suprises. Like the incredible luck from Turkey and today the game Russia - Netherlands.
Russia was the outsider since the beginning. After the 4:1 loss against Spain, nobody believed in them anymore, except Russians of course. They weren't supposed to even qualify for the quarter-finals. But  they did and with each game played better and better. But  Netherlands was  considered the favorit after they won all of their games, even against Italy and France.
And today as we watched the game with my father on TV, we were almost sure that Russia would win. They played really good.
It's been 20 years that Russia qualified for the quarter and the semi-finals...
Still I don't understand the fanatic football fans and the projection of a team of 11 people on the whole country. The win doesn't make anyone better. But I think I'm going to rant about that later on, now I'm in good mood... xD But in Germany, because there're so many different nations it's completely unbelievable how far the fans go...

Circus was okay... I mean for a little kid it was probably great, but not for us. Still we managed to laugh our asses off at different things.
Then after we went to a café, then some went away and four of us were left at the table. It was already after 00.00 and the last bus left. So we got the perfect possibility of walking home. I live quite far away and I had to go up almost the whole time and a partn of my way was through a forest. It was creepy.I came back at about  01.15. The thing that makes me wonder is : the last bus leaves at about 00.06 and the night buses start at 03.00... What the hell should people who want to go home do in between? I think this is highly illogical... Fortunately, I didn't came across any police, I'm 17 and by law was supposed to be at home at 00.00. But the police car went by when we were sitting in the café, I guess with  the guys, who were with us (they were 19) , we didn't look like we were underage xD

I noticed that there are almost none positive entries in my journal. It isn't because nothing good happens, on the contrary there are lots of good moments in my every day life. But I guess that I don't have the need to write these things down unlike it is with negative situations...
I should be taking all things out of my room now, cause my new furniture is going to be there tomorrow (I'll be in school), so the room must be prepared today. And I skipped tennis today (I'm so dead...), I just kinda didn't have enough time, so I missed the bus. Not entirely my fault. My sis called me at the last moment asking to feed Alice (her kitten)
Alice was a present from her boyfriend and actually lives with her in Duisburg, but my sister lives here sometimes, so she brings Alice with her, when my her  roommate  isn't  there. I have no idea when to feed her...  So I didn't even need to go out, because the bus was away...
Tomorrow is Friday, which means WEEKEND! ^^ And we are going to the circus... For free (I wouldn't go if it costed something). Dana's got 33 free tickets *happy*...

Dear bitches, who happen to be in my class,
I don't fucking care if you're gossiping. I don't even give a damn if you are gossiping about me, feel free to do so. Your opinion isn't worth my time. But please, do not gossip about me, when I'm near and loud enough for me to hear. Are you doing this on purpose or are you just plain stupid? Even though I think that it is rather because you're stupid, but if you're doing this to make me snap  than I have to dissapont you. I won't lose it,  definitely not in your presence. I've been through much worse situation and something like that will have no reaction. But I guess, your  lousy brain can't come up with anything better than this.
Go die in a hole
Love, Natalia

4 days without going to school, this is just great!
I love May, we have so much holydays in this month, but I think that this is going to be the last long weekend this school year.
Anyway we got our French tests back yesterday, I've got a 2- (in Germany the marks are given from 1 to 6, 1 being the best and 6 the worst). No one has got a 1 (the test was really stupid). The only thing that bothers me, if I had gotten 0.5 points more, I would have had a straight 2. But it doesn't matter that much anyway.
The test was divided into two parts and we had written them on two different days (organisation problems, because our Biology and Chemistry teacher refused to give her lesson away). The first one was to write a dialogue about our trip to Liège (I didn't go on that one) and the second one was a bit Grammar and text comprehension. I scored most of the points by writing a text, but this questions to the text in the second part confused me sometimes. For example, in the text it said: "Environ 200 personnes meurent chaque anée à cause de cette drogue" which means: "Aboute 200 persons die each year because of that drug", in the statement below ( the task was to decided if the statements below the text are true/false/not mentioned) it said: "Plus de 100 personnes meurent chaque anée à cause de cette drogue", meaning "More than 100 persons die each year because of that drug.". And that left me wondering, what the exact definition of "more" was, is it enough for 200. Turned out that it was...
Actually we wanted to go to the tennis club and play tennis for our game on Sunday, but nobody had time today...
And tomorrow is Jacqui's party, at which we all have to dress as...  Lord of the Rings characters. I said immediately : "There is no  way I'm  any of the hobbits or Gimli". I already have enough complexes because of my hight. So I choose Gandalf, he is cool. The only problem is, I have no idea what to wear...

I just came home back from the trip with Dana. We went to the puppies, one of them, Jolina, is going to be hers and they were just soooooooo cute! And I'm just happy right now... I guess my life is worth living after all

I was sitting today in "Subway", I've eaten a sandwich and was drinking my coffee. I was also reading a book. And what I read surprised me. In the book  "After dark" by Haruki Murakami (one of my favourite authors)  a girl  was sitting in a cafe and drinking cofee at a 4-place table just like me and reading a book. I freaked out...
I know I'm strange

I've been thinking a lot lately and I remembered how I used to be. And  I was wondering how could I change that much. I mean  earlier I was  a troublemaker,  fighting a lot  (physically), the only one  girl  in the company of 5  guys. Doing all the things they did.  A person unlike the others.
And now look at me. A shy little liar, that's what I've become.
And I'm so not happy with it. I want to be like a boy once again, fighting anyone I want and play street soccer (best game ever)  without rules with boys. I want to be the first one to jump into the water, no matter how cold it is. I want to be irrational. Own-minded. Different. Unique.
I want to be me again.